as this starts and ends. so we begin. and began.
here we are.
but what's more is this body quivers at the thought of reuniting.
and we will come together.
and we go farther.
she's starving for more.
yearning for more than a date's excuse to reignite.
time passes slowly with just air between us.
let nothing stand in our way.
with lovers in hands.
explore what's bitten.
to quench.
like starving teenagers would.

so hold

it's cold outside

all i keep thinking
about that thought
conjured by sleeplessness
how sweet it would feel
to be with you
on a street side
with gravel beneath us
swaying
with me in your arms
for longer than it calls
we'd just stand
holding on
and i'll let out
all the breath i anticipated

i am a restless soul
so creativity finds me
in the night
when it's best to remain quiet
but i tremble with the need to create
while i wish to indulge
and i do so
loudly
in the night

tripping over perseverance

never have i found one willing to question and persevere. and that perseverance was once revoked, then reinstated. your regret and my reliance, not to mention resilience, revitalized.

he does not, will not allow. or excuse.
her usual acts of defiance.
her temper tantrums that quieted the rest.
and then she's led to second guess
her reaction,
because her fuse is too short to merely respond.

this time she slipped
tripped over her own feet
but blamed it on his

ill be the fire-eyed-girl
to your quiet eyes

i might be home

i drove here after the game and buying groceries
i put my food in my part of the cabinet

because i am in my home
the house is cold
my room is not
the house is
cute/quaint
eventually so will be my room

i made myself a cup of hot cocoa to finalize it
the bed is mostly made
except for my desired second perfect purple pillow
a few days from now
and he will put the final touches on my bed

for now
i sit amidst boxes and bags
all full of my life
that will go on from here

a new life is just around the corner
just days away
and miles further
im scared out of my mind
but a month or two to settle before i kick back into to school and work life

and i pray i see you more when im there
all of you

i pray
for progress
and growth
together
but for now it's at the back of my mind
but i wonder where youve placed me
except for the place i know im not
except when we're together
sharing moments
the kind of thing that keeps us going
longer
apart
but stronger
or ive misunderstood all of this
but he said
follow your gut-
youre probably right
and the tension in our grasp revitalizes and reassures
the distance from my nose to yours
suggests more than a smile